Posted in Guilt and Shame, Marriage and Divorce, Spouses on Aug 30th, 2009
I proposed in my hospital room. Which, in retrospect, was probably not the wisest move I’ve ever made. I mean, yes, I wanted T to know how much I loved her, but talk about emotional baggage! Geez. I can’t remember know, ten years later, if I had gotten the diagnosis which gave me a great [...]
Posted in Children, Guilt and Shame, Marriage and Divorce, Spouses on Aug 1st, 2009
I am the mother of three children under the age of five. My husband and I both work. My time is spent either alone with my children, with my husband and children, or at work. The only alone time I get is when everyone is asleep before me. I cherish this time, but find I [...]
I feel like an alien or an outsider most of the time for a variety of reasons. But the main reason is: I don’t understand the desperate need/desire for sex. It’s nice, I guess. I’ve had fun from time to time. It’s not that I haven’t enjoyed it. But there’s so much more that I’d [...]
Posted in Children, Parents and Siblings, Spouses on Jul 23rd, 2009
When I was about seven, I found out what adoption meant. My cousin was adopted as an infant. I was jealous. She’d been taken by a family who wanted her. I decided for a short while that I had been adopted. It was a fantasy I hung onto – an explanation of sorts, the kind [...]